pieces d'aujourdhui

I am about to eat a Limited Edition coffee flavored KitKat. Food with "limited edition" on it always intrigues me and then always ends up at BigLots. Go to Big Lots. You'll see.

It feels as though half of my heart is far far away in the Ukraine.
it is.

Walking to work today I found the word for how I have been feeling. Expectant. It's not a bad feeling. Just restless, uneasy, unsettled. When I realize what the feeling is, I actually realize it's a good feeling. But it's easy to mistake it for unhappiness. I feel like something's going to happen, like things are going to change, like the world is strange and God is stirring up my insides and the way I see. I like being able to hold onto an awareness that the world is strange. That's a blessing. But i also feel like I'm living some strange life that was assigned to me. Who's skin am I in?

Music today... Hem's CD "Rabbit Songs", which is so nice to study by and have as background to live against. Delirious's "Find me in the river".

Today's reading... Genesis, from Jacob and Esau to the end of the book. What a crazy, crazy bunch of people. What a crazy, crazy story. It's not the story we've been told, told in bits in Sunday School. It's so much stranger and bigger and more cohesive. Things aren't packageable in little wee lessons with corresponding flannel figures and easy morals for the day. This stuff is pre-Mosaic law, pre-temple, pre-a lot of revelation of God. Whom were these men, these 'patriarchs,' worshipping? Whom were they hearing, wrestling, questioning?
El. YHWH. God Almighty.
How little they knew OF Him compared to all the revelation we are privileged to have today, through the Word, through Christ Jesus. Yet how much they KNEW Him, the real Him.

How far we have to go. How much more of Him is there yet to be revealed?

Work thoughts: Do you think kids are really supposed to be put in large groups as they are in daycares, etc.? maybe it's just that I'm not made to be a leader of large groups of kids, but I'm not so sure that it's even right or natural for things to be this way. If I ever started any kind of childcare it would be a new breed where every kid or every two kids had just one adult assigned to them, and group-coming-together activities were planned creatively, cooperatively and joyfully.