Sunday, September 11, 2005
Your love broke through...
this morning I spotted a book on the shelves of the wee church library in which I was sitting for a 'newcomers' class at the church I'm going to. I'm not totally sure what I'm doing in the class. But I think God sat me right beneath this book.
I had to check it out. I think I've seen it other places before. Isn't it funny how a book's time in your life sometimes is a long time in coming?
It's the book 'No Compromise. The Life Story of Keith Green.'
It's not the best writing in the world, and maybe it's not even the full-color picture of his life. But it's a person's story, told from the heart. So I'm almost done with it, have hardly been able to put it down today. Testimony books and I are like that.
Melanie, dear one, if you find this, know that your reconnecting me with Keith's music has been a blessing to me. How I miss you.
He's been gone since before I was born. Yet in his philosophy, his passion, Keith feels like the friend I wish were here; we cry out about so many of the same things. So this book was a challenge today, a challenge, a comfort, a friend. Maybe I'm not so crazy after all. Maybe I could even be even 'crazier' and it would be okay...
So many of us find grace, really find and hold onto and treasure GRACE--Abba-love--as a next-phase in our walk with and toward Jesus. Isn't that interesting? It's like a next-stage after striving so hard, wanting so much to be better for Jesus, and then realizing how broken you are and how impossible that is.
I like what Keith wrote in 1980 in his journal: "I used to think discipline and self-control was a natural by-product of a supernatural holiness and revival. but now I see that lack of self-discipline is keeping my holiness (which I already have in Jesus) from controlling my life an coming to the surface. This is a brand-new view, and I believe I've isolated the enemy's greatest stronghold in my life at this time... Discipline is not holiness--nor the way to holiness--it just helps you maintain it."
And feelings are not God, are not always right. But what a gift from Him they are. I wonder if we are so eager to keep ourselves from drowning that we disregard them as a precious tool that He uses if we place them in His hands. It's a tricky tightrope. But God sings. God weeps. God inspires. Let's let ourselves FEEL, as well as know about, His holiness and His glory.
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I introduced Zoya to "You Are The One!" a beautiful song from Keith and she loved it...she loved all of his songs...he was a real gem
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