What do you call a happy muffin? :-)Oh, Mel, I miss you.
Life is moving a little too fast for me all of a sudden, and I am feeling a little more alone in it than I really am. Maybe it just takes a little time to adjust when you change places and when you are just getting used to having this incredibly joyful treasure of a sisterperson in your life again, and the in one swift motion, she's gone. Again. Makes me a little scared to get so close to a person, because it's so confuzzling to lose them. Knocks the wind out of me. It's so much firmer, stabler...and colder... to just be separate from everyone, to think that I'm on my own, that no one else but Jesus really really really truly cares or understands. And it's true in a way--He understands as no one else can and He's always with me in a way no one else can be. There's nothing like the relationship I've been given with Him.
Yet guess what, Kate? Human relationships can be so blessed by Him, so used by Him, so wonderful--more so than I ever really believed till, as the song says, 'till there was you.' It's honestly a little bit of a scary revelation because it means the possibility in the world of so much more pain than was possible when I was so much more cut off, so much 'safer' by being on my own island. But it's a beautiful revelation at the same time. More beautiful than scary. Because it's a window into the love of God, that He would give me a friend like you and a friendship like this. To realize that depth and wonder and seeking God wholeheartedly can be found not only in solitude, but in glorious 'running partnership.' We knew this before. But this past week has given me the gift of feeling it again, and to a new depth. BE STRONG AND COURAGEOUS, says the Lord.
I love to booooogie on a Saturday night.
And on we go......
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Oi, I miss ya.
I was just thinking this morning as I started my day too shortly after I got off the phone with you and my brother rushed me and himself off to go eat lunch with Abbie. I was thinking of all that I learned last week and all that Jesus showed me through you and through being together and it was quite interesting. He told me again last night how we are beloved by God and that is our identity. He gives us friendship and friends and loved one and people that are kindred and special and its meant to be a blessing. I was thinking about what you were saying about it being snatched from our fingertips again and that is one of my biggest fears and a huge reason why I haven't gotten close to people here (besides the fact that I connect to very few) but really, when the day is over, it is much better to love and lost then to have never loved at all. And it's better to have a friendship for a short week where it is visible and where conversation isnt ended by time differences and life and where you can just BE. That I love. It's better to have that for just a little bit then to not have a friend like that on this whole earth. I am blessed and encouraged and SO very priviliged to have a friend like you. WHo walks like you, talks like you-o-o-. :) It's, once again, a precious piece of Jesus. I was just reading in this book last night that said: "Define yourself radically as one beloved by God. God's love for you and His choice of you constitute your worth. Accept that, and let it become the most important thing in your life." That blew me away. That's the whole point of life. To be beloved by God and to be radical about it.
Let's be radical together. To be running partners. You said the other night, and it warmed my heart deeply, that this is not the last time we will be together. We will be friends for eternity and for that I am looking very much forward. So let us be those radical running partners, aye?
Go on, I dare ya. :) I'm proud to have known you, always be yourself. Love.
Me
I don't know what it is
But you got to do it
I don't know where to go
But you got to be there
I don't know where to fall
But I know that its comfortable where
I don't know where it is.
I miss you. When is the best time to call? I will try to write a sufficiant email tomorrow :) :)
love you forever,
Mel
Maybe the picture stirred our souls because its a good .....photo for the way of life, I reckon. There he is, reaching for this dream that is not really what people want for him, what people want him to do at his feet and this dream that he is striving for, but a little unsure of, that dream is what he's trying to reach. He's even a little small for that big of a dream, but he's anxiously awaiting something (SomeOne) to show him which way to go (hence the starring out the big window) I think it's dandy.
Side note: saw that Undertow movie last night with me pop's. It was.....very strange. Our Billy did quite the excellent job as did the other kid int he movie. That alone is enough to see the movie, I think. It's a bit dark, sort of confusing, yet done quite artistically. A little neat.
I'm gonna watch I am David sometime as well, I'll let ya know how it is.
Love,
me
"Blessed be Your name on the road marked with suffering, though there's pain the offering, Blessed be Your name. Every blessing You pour out, I'll turn back to praise. When the darkness closes Lord, still I was say! Blessed be the name of Lord! Blessed be Your name!"
I miss you. What truth that song holds.
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