reservations

blogs are a little scary to me. I'm wary of wallowing, of dramatizing, of getting self-centered or trying to sound a certain way for whoever. Because these are things I know are in me. these are reasons I stopped doing just about anything artistic for public consumption.

i just set this up so i could comment on Mel's blog. But I find myself weirdly drawn to it, I guess just the desire to create something. This isn't going to be a consistent thing. I don't have the time, energy or desire for an online obssession. I don't like what it would do to me. I don't really want to be aware of an audience while I write, other than the Audience of God.

But the urge I feel to share thoughts of God in order to make myself think, and maybe, who knows, to get some True Thoughts from other people... this is pretty strong today, and so for today at least this is an active Thing. Sporadic, it will be. Mostly things I have already written, it will be. Stopped if I become self-focused, it will be. Mmmm. The pull of sharing is strong in you, young blog.